my history

'i opened my wings
if only i could fly back
though i stay alive in your hand
i would present my exquisite gift'

draw my Angel's visage in your mind
as if she wanted to get out from something
her eyes dripping, she opened her wings
the with a last glimpse back on
the past she look, she sknew her disaster
the disaster breakng my heart down under her feet
she wanted to stay for me
but an unexpected gale covered her wings
(what a force) she paralyzed
this gale was drifting her,
to my future..
but my ruin arose towards
that is why i call my future, past...

collapse

insomnia, a cold fear in every second
woeful, weary, methink i'm too close
never had an aegis, i'm ceded to my fate
little stones embracing as if a temple
all these graves are forlorn without funerals

cries tearing the silence of ghastly ruin
i welcome tears shedding for me
feeling their warm, smelling their scent
i have that delight but they offend

i muse, do i deserve these

splendour of morn oozing in my eyes
hope is still alive but i want to die
before i leave myself to its magic
why Angels seer to that tragedy

i muse, dı i deserve these

the waves of that soil drowned me
below the surface, i have new sorrows
it arranged a nw nature...
to atheist this could prove God

i muse, do i deserve these

i lose

leave a little sleep over my bed
for image of you in the eyes
nipper in heart cry out for mother
for a warm embrace in dreamless nights
those eyes, drowning in your tears
if the have to die on your way

leave a little rain over my soul
to have you back in my dreams
eternally i would wait, within that sorrow
i would die, if death was its end
existing between you and your love
you drove me into a deeper paradox

you won i lose, let an end to that enigma
as i'm looking for, you hide the solution

rise of waves

vexed to life vein felicity
glare beauties lie, what is real?
adverse direction, all are drifting
i saw foam nigh, but from whom
i cannot envisage, cannot answer
oh God! have that sinful body
cherish me with your divine tears
to chain me to that forlorn Ararat

i leave myself to that dream
how a celestial sentence
as the winds of crimson morns
as the depths of eternal nights

flashes made my blind heart see
i know the answer what should be
the Creation, the Gold Age, again
absolutely a new creation
birth of a noble generation

'breathe deeper to get out of you
to leave you behind'

nothing remain after the surges
and we've ceded over the waters, below he crimson skies
haply i have found you unchanged
out of circles, still you're beautiful

i let the doves lead us to Hades
i have my alchemy in my hands
with that magic, i would gild the morns
and dive into the desolate hours of nights

leaf

i lt myself in the circles of the wind
now falling...
down through my nature
my bonds to the life broken off
and it's time for me to lie
under that maroon sun

let me wither
in the nature i born

under your shade

in your rain of dreams
i'm crowned with noble images
your shape in the eyes altered
Angels painted the sight into silver
all the visions of my mind paralyzed

as if a moon you are in solar eclipse
hiding the sun behind you
a desire, colorless, far beyond me
as your shadow embraces me
your rain began as always did

the feeling ou have is so sacred
so noble as just for Gods
still i wait a sign to stay in
as a dreamy feeling in your magic world
to share the same dreams
to share the same shadow

illness

dying
slowly like a burning candle

everytime seperating my each piece

fading inside that harmful illness
no cure
let it embrace...

tragic turn down

rage inside lovely lives
oft killing mutual dreams
thou wilt wount thy might
yet methink sorrow is mine
as thy mortal legacy

ere thou resembl'd a rose
clip'd in my cold hands
within Angels' lustful desires
thou art the sun summongrief
dost reign'd as thou arose

thy noble beauty coil'd up to thee
gilded the morn in dreamy hues
even thou fade slowly
thou intruded in that woeful heart
dearth of tou is dearth of me

i crown'd even thou disdain
thy thorns were my delight
tears i shed all to thee
plead for thy absolute love
wish'd thou alter my grieved fate

yet i see thou slain'd me
thou soil that innocent heart
as i follow thou draw inner
i wonder when i shalt wake
how wilt thy drama end

lost shadow

from the other side, i am a shadow
deep inside yours as the only last one

i lay under a halfseen fullmoon night
where the flower made carpet laid
then we drank love from the same tulip

my flame went out by your magic whisper
and i fell down to sleep in my rosen throne

you were relevated to me in my deepest dreams
as angel you came to my throne...(i was tempted)
then we drank love from the same tulip

your love shaped in my hands gently
however i am your lost shadow beside

silently my spirit reached to your honey lips
and slipped down from your alone hopeless hands
then we drank love from the same tulip

a memory of you

silver eyes painted my world
on the way through the heavens
my soft stairs as a silken bed
i waited a sign to stay

as the spirit left that weary soul
a miracle appeared within misery
she came close, held my hands
yet i couldn't say...

she thought, she smiled
as if my eyes played an illusion
its last trick to my mind
how i couldn't say...

i lost the memory of you
if only you would be real
my arrogant sanity belied me
never will i say???

night skin

i am looking for a way to get out of myself
in my dreams i only see the same color
my mind is freak, even seem to be serene
tender touches of dusky lonesome seared me

i was the only one who instead of me could pass away
as a simple move, i rotated my hourglass
as if i born again, my new life towards
tearing the night's skin to see the sunshine

so i led my lofty illusion out
to create myself again
i changed the color of my dreams
my sanity was my marvel element

in the times, darkness surround me
i'm still in myself within a deep desolation
night skin wrap my bleeding memory
as if it belongs to my one-colored dream

dreamy plant

nude soil under the sun
left to alter to a desert
if only she would never see
she would never exist

a simple order should reverse
this unknown rules of nature
she cried, uttered the magic
as if she ordered...

and nature present a dreamy plant
a plant with many hands
to embrace her eternal lonesome
she waited its name to introduce herself

the lofty name Azarole whispered
from the circles of the clouds
on the wings of wind she saw
her lonesome is flyig away
with her miserable utopias...

no need to explain

in a deep abyss he stays
without an emotion
as if he lost all his humanist thoughts
he's sure yet not absolutely
his eyes are not clear
weary lids drifts him into a desire
as if he wants to be alone

a momentary silence he is left
now he just weeps
in his dark room with his desolate tears
a last look on the dirty pages
of his gloomy diary
he couldn't find the words to write
as if no need to explain

dark portal

she looked with dismal eyes crying
as if a lover of grief was fading
under the Angelwings of nature, i ceded
my beauty lied withering lonely
the magic portal waited her knock
to serve its paradise generously
night fled, morning tries to see
how the Angels weep to that tragedy

i left all my roses over...to shed
all the leaves to cover her honey spirit

. . . (nameless)

i'm looking for your hands, your skin
in the elegant hands of God
splending flesh, seraphic soul
what a beauty envied Angels

i was crowned with you as a prophet
you were granted to my forlorn aerie
i am mused by your gracious visage
chide myself if i was tempted by you

you altered ny crying destiny
turned the dusk into shining morns
as your cloak embraces me warly
i shed divine tears for your existence

dreamhouse

walking up the stairs without feeling the floor
you seem flying over dreams
you open my door even being a stranger
to my lonesome dreamy house

each side is treasure i keep in me
don't walk so inside, leave something secret

illusion you see white wall are black
as a strange mixture of my sorrows
the hall you walk soft for your feet
but you can't imagine how you hurt

walking inside house, you saw my whole
so that was the last sight
i let you away, leave the silence to me
let my heart keep dreaming

dreams of heroin

under the sleepy mist of heroin
empty tablets lying beside tired
as i down you, more i die for you
the images coming through my eyes
now seen as darkening shadow
i am drifting to an another dimension
the dream, promising eternal pleasure
altered me to a desolate entity

in your white dress you were my light
you initiated a love, how a beauty
i knew, i was lying in your hands
but i was still myself in me
divine enigma of my closing eyes
hidden inside your shameful tube
as if i have longed for your pain
why i waited you to recover

in each injection...i feel you in
methink you're reigning me
yet, we're sharing the same ending

beauty under shade

through shadeless beauty of you
tempt me within your whole desire
even the shades hid you
scene all misery of my love

in desire's way you lit my flame
the sudden seas drifted into a paradise
all i've seen on you is beauty
my only dream, you...the shadeless beauty

i came to your innocence temple
where all your beauty lies within a spell
i'm crying your love, in my hands
i signed outstanding flowers...to enter inside

perfidious lover, without your sight
i leave my heart down to absym (i dare...)
aught allay my august pride
all Keepers justify my content...open it now

'looking on darkness which i blind to see
save that my souls imaginary sight
presents their shadow to my sightless view
which like a jewel hund in ghastly night
makes black night beautious
...and your visage slight'*

*from Shakespeare

eternal

what is forever, what is eternal
what a mystical strange question?
a neverending search in the time

over the dusty shelves of solitude library
the holy book with an old binding, torn papers
as if waiting a noble hand to serve itself

from the first page, it crowns the whole alchemy
even reigns with unknown words of an unknown alphabet
has her secret power without God
as if she says
'i am the one what is eternal'

a prophet with innocent hands
opened her hard cover softly
fearing to hurt her Angelic flesh

the smell of the holy dust inside
hardly breathed, yet unwillingly lungs had
as if they know her secret against God

flowers, sun, sea and all the life elements
incurably had that spell on the own soul
cruel the time, celebrated that funeral
as if he knows
she is the one what is eternal

death of a city

among the wild seas, deep down to dreams
the sun never rised, whole kingdom hidden below
fortress of love crumbled, then the deepest sleep
as a treasure Atlantis, left inside in a soft way
left to die in a lofty way with its whole heaven

running down is rising above the skies
painless, fearless through the Atlantis' heart
each sight magics me, i fear to love you

down to cold waters
back to dead city
city of sadness, darkness
with whole beauty Atlantis

Atlantis carry me to your lost paradise
embrace under that shineless blue sun
all i have seen has no shade on you

down to cold soil
back to Angels city
city of pleasure, peace
with whole beauty Atlantis

miracle

as a motherhood instinct you embraced
you've coiled me up in your hands
your love as an aegis covered me

as a weary rose of your sorrow garden
wished to stay with your august dew
i feared to be alone without you

i have the moon in my hands
clouds lying below my body
i wondered when the night would come
to present that dreamy gift to you
if only i could paralyze the scene in my mind
to share my miracle with you

Angels whisper that elegy everytime
you've stolen the days from me
in the eternal desolation i am living
but my hands are opened for you
if only i could hold my love in my hands
to share that miracle with you

you know how long i could live
and the days you've stolen from me
eternally you promised is no onger mine

if i need to be myself
i could be with my miracle
if only i could hold my love in my hands

nobleculture

yu silver eyes clasped my heart
i have your dismal dream everynight
anytime i woke in the lake of tears
i find your illusion towards with your whole beauty
you dance with my shadow on the wall

your culture is diffusing from your silk flesh
it crowns, how a splending beauty rain
tempting like moonlight of vast nights
under your Angelic whispers, i dissolved
your noble culture intruded in my presence

now i feel you in me...

Venus' daughter, Goddess of love
your memory in my hands, i'm fading
lonely through my forlorn hades
if only you consider my entity

i feel you in me...